wow i need to get my butt in gear
like there are so many things i could be doing to prePARE FOR MY FUTURE
but i am just sitting around
how do you stop procrastinating and being lazy i neeD TO FOCUS
i was doing so many things earlier this summer. especially after i got back from europe but now nIC
i could at least be practicing russian. i really need to do that. i’m thinking about trying to do a semester over there this spring or next fall buT IS IT POSSIBLE? i mean i just did study abroad, but i can’t stand the idea of sitting tight in the states for very long. i need to find some people i can study with this year too because last year i did not have a social life at all and i aM GOING TO CHANGE THAT THIS YEAR EVEN IF IT KILLS ME AND IT MIGHT.
like the main reason i want friends who go to my school and have the same variety of interests is so i can have a kind of accountability group so i wiLL ACTUALLY STUDY. i don’t want to party i just want to make sure i don’t get below a 3.5 gpa okAY. i just need to stop being so self-conscious at school. all these other people are so much moRE SOCIALLY ADEPT. i am so amazingly awkward it’s not funny. TIME TO BE A GROWN UP
and i need to look into scholarships and such because after this year i really really really want to go to the university of washington because they have a pretty awesome slavic languages/lit department and wOW THAT IS BASICALLY PERFECT. i was really hardcore looking into it at the beginning of last year, but then i stopped because i was like ‘wow this will never happen’
but if i just stop being lazy it coULD
and then there is an internship that really hinges on how well I can learn Russian and I just really want to get that because it’s perfect
and then my parents wont be able to tell me ‘omG YOU WILL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING’ anymore becAUSE CHECK IT OUT I AM SO BUSY AND MOVING TO WASHINGTON
i mean it’s all slightly nerve wracking, but i’m pretty good at adapting. moving to washington would be pretty significant because it would mean i’m finally leAVING THE NEST but i mean i think i do better when i don’t feel as secure with my surroundings. it forces me to focus more whereas if i’m staying at home yeeaaah
self-disCIPLINE IS THERE A PILL FOR IT
